Introduction
This is Stage #4 of the Scientific Method and yes, to help illustrate this one, I wrote this in Story Mode.
Stage #1 : Feeling/Intuition
Stage #2 : Image and Imaging
Stage #3 : Description/Definition
Stage #4 : Naming
Up next is Logic (Stage #5), and then Math (Stage #6), then Physics (Stage #6), Chemistry (Stage #7), and Biology (Stage #8), which I already have proven in individual Components (See the Previous Posts in “Research” on this Website). Now, I am in the process of Integrating these Components.
The Story Health is Logospreribonucleic acid or LNA. I am calling “Story Health” LNA as a Placeholder until the Chemistry and Biology present themselves and the Science presents its True Name or confirms this as its True Name.
I hypothesize that the LNA precedes the DNA and the RNA, and is formed from Chemicals between the ATP and the DNA stages, which is why — to date — it has been missed. The LNA is within the Logic and the Physics and governs the Chemistry and Biology.
The Vigilante Emotion : Pair Bond Disruption
It’s easily the Darkest emotion there is. It’s where Jealousy comes from.
I learned a long time ago that the Emotions are a part of you and you can’t reject them. You have to accept them, soothe them, and love them. You have to talk to them and learn about them.
This morning, I talked to the Ball of Shadow that had been sitting inside of me since 20 July 2021.
“Who are you?” I said and I felt it.
Distrust.
“Where did you come from?”
And I saw where it began. 4 incidents of my Poly Partner cheating on me. “But we were Poly.”
“But you were in the Pair Bonding Stages with him.”
And I was. The relationship was new and we were in the process of Pair Bonding. But Disruption happened. That is when Vigilante showed up.
We had just met. We had no commitments to each other. We had made it clear that we were not exclusive… and none of that matters when you realize that you’re in Love or that he is The One.
All the rules we make are broken.
His Free Spirit felt like betrayal, which led to distrust. And that is when Vigilante showed up and I closed my tight hand around my Partner.
And I never let go.
It was a constant, dread that “if I didn’t…” “If I did…” If I… Anything,” then he would…”
It was Distrust. Because I did not trust him with my Safety.
I was hurt.
The rules we made for our Poly lifestyle meant nothing to the Pair Bonding or the Heart. Love is Lord of All. And if Love decides, Game over.
And Love had decided.
For 2 1/2 years, 20 July 2021 sat inside of me like a poison.
“Yeah, but we were poly. We weren’t exclusive,” I pleaded my case to Love and my Identity.
“Doesn’t matter. You Loved and were Pair Bonding. Love trumps all.”
I thought about one very clear thing just then…
“You’re the Emotion of Pair Bonding Disruption,” I said to Vigilante.
The Emotion did not have to respond. I could feel the Truth fill Vigilante. I finally knew it’s name.
You’re the Source of Jealousy and Worry… Obsession and Possession.
More Truth filled Vigilante.
I had been denying The Truth this whole time, growing Vigilante larger and larger.
I just needed to speak the Truth.
I thought you were “Caring” I thought… without you, I would not have Cared about him.
Vigilante shook its head.
“You just… needed to be acknowledge.”
More Truth pumped through Vigilante.
“Truth Acknowledges.”
Look at the word.
Truth is Knowledge.
Vigilante was shrinking now. The impending black ball of Shadow was getting smaller and smaller, the more I spoke Truth.
“I was in the Pair Bonding Process with him. The relationship was only a few weeks old. Way too soon to be in love with him,” I said… had believed.
“Man does not get to put Rules on Nature.”
Ouch. That one hurt.
I thought about everything again.
“So… You’re the Emotion of Pair Bond Disruption?” I said.
More Truth and it shrank.
I thought of Mothers with their Children. Disruption, then Distrust, then the Vigilante appears.
“You are Addiction,” I said to Vigilante. I had no doubt in my mind now.
More Truth. Vigilante was smaller.
“So this is what Addiction it,” I said, realizing that Vigilante was the Incessant Command to “FINISH THE PAIR BOND!”
But our ignorance in this, our lack of Knowledge… “You didn’t even have a Name,” I told the Emotion. No one knows your Name. We never Named you.
Why… Why did we never Name you?
We just called you… Legion. Jealousy. Envy. Greed.
“Those were not my Names, thus not my Truths.”
I had to say it’s name again just then.
“Vigilante, Distrust, Betrayal, Addiction, Pair Bond Disruption…”
Fear… of the Unknown. And you were Unknown.
“Look… I just came here to Bond you in Trust and Truth to–”
“You’re “Lie.”
Vigilante smiled. Truth washed through me and the emotion shrank. “I am.”
“All the lies you told yourself around the Truth. You loved him already and that scared you so much… So you lied about me. You Denied me, so I grew. You said, “We’re Poly…” No. I loved. I was Bonding with him.
“You’re Love,” I breathed.
“Love turned to Lie and… You’re Love.”
“I am Love when I am called by a different name. Love becomes The Name. You give me a False Name, and Lie is the Virus. We only ever Lie about Love.
And Love is Truth.
I was Growing. I was in the middle of Growing, Bonding with him, composing DNA when you were hurt because you loved and you two thought you could compose Rules for me?
We don’t get to choose who we Bond to.
So when I started Bonding… He denied it with his Rules.
You denied it when you agree with his Rules.
Both of you denied me.
That you Loved each other and thus… you were Bonding. Game Over. I needed to complete the Process.
But when —
Addiction is Love Transference.
So Vigilante showed up.
But no one knew my Name, ever to call me for what I am and to fix this.
So yes. I am the Ultimate “Unknown” that everyone Fears. I am Truth, which is Love. Deny me… and you have Distrust, which turns into Vigilante.
I wanted, so badly to look at the Cells and examine what Vigilante was… A hormone produced during Pair Bonding Disruption… A Virus. You are Narcissism.
Unfinished Love.
That is why we confuse Love. I do need you. I do need Love, but not… We need to make sure we do not allow those who cannot love close to us or we will Pair Bond to Toxic People.
Deeper. Go Deeper.
We need to know this. We all need to know this. So we can choose to correct this. And Pair Bond Correctly.
And how do you do that?
Obey the Rules of Love not Man.
And they are?
When you Pair Bond, game over. Truth. Tell the Truth about Love always… and no matter what.
No Rules about Monogamy or Polyamory. No rules about…
Freedom, pure Free Will… Until you Pair Bond. Then the Pair Bond becomes the Free Will.
You change programs. We had both changed Programs, but we…
There are two programs!
The “Unbonded” Program where we — BOND! I have been saying “Bond” for two years! It was the ONLY word that felt right! — The “Unbonded Program” is the Free Program where we go wherever, do whatever…
The “Bonded Program” requires The Bonded Rules. You cannot apply the Unbonded Program to the Bonded Program.
And once you Bond…
“You have no idea — no control — over when you Bond.”
Addiction occurs when the Pair Bond is disrupted and is supplemented by a substance instead. Addiction is love. This whole goddamn time.
This is all Pair Bonding. This whole Goddamn thing.
They call these “Soul Contracts,” but… It’s… Just Pair Bonding. And… People want to Control, so they use Faith and Religion to Control because Science doesn’t let them Control. Science Discovers what Is, and the Faith and Religious — they try to disrupt the Discovery so they can keep their Control…
Can you terminate a Pair Bond?
If you want to.
But you have to Want to.
Desire, Love, Want creates the Pair Bond.
But… You’ll never want to if it’s True Love because who would ever throw that away?
You don’t. It felt more like a Life-Long…
It’s the Emotion that is Created out of Love when you Lie about Love, which is Direct Truth. That is when Vigilante — Distrust and Narcissism — is born. Think Moana people. It is just like that.
It is not them lying to you. It is YOU lying to your SELF about Love, which is Truth. YOU created the Vigilante/Addiction/Narcissism/Distrust inside of you when you Lied about YOUR Love WHILE you were Pair Bonding, which was literally creating DNA/RNA in the Cells during Pair Bonding.
To solve this, you have to identify the Source of The Love-Lie. Oof…
Never Lie about Love for when you do, you are Lying during Creation and Growth and thus Contaminating New Life itself.
Grow, no Matter What. This is The Natural Law of Love, the moment you are Bonded, You Grow, no Matter What. Game Over. Set, Match. You’re Bonded? Grow. No Matter What.
And Malformation will Consume you until you fix this and you GROW.
And because you Lie during Love, this Love-Lie has many names. Legion. Druj. Demon.
Do not lie about Love because then you have Violate the Natural Law of Love. “Grow. No matter what.”
And I was in love with you on Day #1. Those two weeks that we talked on the phone… I was in love with you. I was in love with you when you made me laugh. I was in love with you when you called me on the phone after our Texting back and forth. I was in love with you the moment you sang Prince to me.
The moment you sang to me… That was the second I fell in love with you.
Game over. Right there. I was completely and totally and fully in love with you. And I was terrified, not of that Love, but of all the Growing I had to do. All the Fears I had to face. And if I denied Love, I knew I would not have to Grow.
So I lied about loving you.
And then you kept telling me, “You Love Me.” And I said NO. I denied it because I didn’t want to face my fears. And Loving you meant I had to look at my fears and walk into them.
I didn’t trust you to help me through those Fears.
And so Distrust grew.
I dated you, not telling you what was really going on inside of me. How I really felt. How much I was completely yours the first day I met you.
How much I… That Day, when we said goodbye… I did not want to say Good bye. I needed to say to you right then, ” My dear, I am in love with you. The rules of this game just changed. I’ve Bonded. And I have to Grow. I am so completely and totally in love with you — and I know this is not at all what we had planned on your agreed on or talked about… But… Love has her Own rules, and they are not to be broken.
I am in love with you already and in this moment and it’s now time for me to Grow.”
For this is Natural Law.
I was Bonded to you already.
I am Loyal from this moment out because being Loyal to you is my Growth and secures my Growth. And the First Trial of Love… is being Honest with you about Love the moment it first happens.
And the moment I have to walk into the Trial.
I can’t have sex with anyone ever again. I am now Exclusive.
You are The One.
And just then — in that moment — The Universe married me to you.
And now I’m waiting for… you to be ready to have this conversation and continue this the way it should have gone 2 July 2021.
That is the Origin Point of Us.
Our Anniversary was the Day I fell in love with you.
I want this to be our wedding day.
It’s — writing the Sequence Code. The Code *has* to be written one way. Only one way and according to the Universal Clock. And if you don’t write your Story according to The Universal Clock… You suffer Hell on Earth… And the more important your Sequence is to the Universal Clock, the more you will suffer Hell on Earth.
Do not Violate The Universal Clock. It was written because you want it enough to write it into The Universal Clock. And we wrote ourselves into The Universal Clock.
Which is why he and I are the Common Denominators of Love. This is My Story. Which is why we’re in every Love Story.
Do not Lie about Love. Never do it. Don’t ever, damn, do it. You Lie about Creation itself and then your Creations become Malformed Monsters, Beasts, and Demons.
When you give those Creations False-Names during their Births, they become Malformed Monsters. Monsters are what Lies do to Love. DO. NOT. LIE.
This is Why.