All loose ends are coming to a close.
I did it. I finally reached the Correct Point, Relative to Truth, to end my Relationship.
I had a Block — The Catch-22 created by The If-Then Clause Paradox and False Clause Adoption that prevented me from reaching the correct Point of View I needed to let go of my Relationship.
The Truth threatened my Nourishment.
Once I felt Safe enough to accept the Truth, I was able to — on 30 December 2024 — finally accept the Break Up that he initiated September 2022.
On 4 January 2025, I acknowledge that I do still love him. And I do.
On 6 January 2025, I realized it is best to let him have the Decision he made. I reflected on my wording, but this is the exact Mindset — Violation of Freedom — I have been in since September 2022. I felt it was appropriate and honest to say it that way.
Immediately, I felt the re-wiring of my Nervous System. I felt everything shift. I feel it right now. It feels like I was struck in the back of the head with a baseball bat.
It reminds me of the time I experienced that severe “tearing” sensation in the back of my head in 1995. I still don’t know what happened that day. I was alone in my room. Suddenly, I experienced a severe and painful “Tearing” sensation like my skin had split open on the back of my head, right above the base of my 1st Vertebra where my Cerebellum is located.
I put my hand to my head and was surprised that I didn’t see blood there. I never figured out what that was or what caused it.
I was only Thinking when that happened.
Hypothesis : In order to “elevate” my Brain’s Potential, it had to “Upgrade” itself? Like a Brain’s Hymen being torn? I almost want to laugh at the silliness of this. But sure! That feels right, Logical, and Accurate and “As it is on one level… so it is on all levels.”
This entire experience — from May 2021 to 6 January 2024 — has allowed me the ability to analyze and study relationships in full circle.
And for the record :
IT WAS A FUCKING NIGHTMARE TRYING TO MASTER THE SKILL OF KEEPING THE OBSESSION BULL SHIT OUT OF MY PSYCHOLOGICAL SCIENCES WHILE THE SCIENTIST WAS ALSO THE SUBJECT!! IT WAS FUCKING HELL!
But absolutely Mountains worth of the most precious of Data.
In Conclusion, Romantic Love is a Man-Made Concept based on Possession, Obsession, Greed, and Control that is a result of Consumption, which was birthed from a Loss of Truth and Nourishment combined.
Bonded Love — True Love — is Natural Made and is VERY real. That is Healthy, Organic Love, that is Mother Nature Made and the Chemistry and Biology behind it is breathtaking.
Only True Love adheres to The Phoenix Cycle. The Phoenix Cycle is Love’s Pattern. It’s how Immortality and Eternity is possible.
I feel it all winding down now.
21 January 2025 is Truth Day.
All Lies expire on 21 January 2025.
The Countdown has begun.