Two years ago, I was very much stuck in the “Indulge A” and “Indulge B” of the Black and White Thinking Spectrum. Living without the Fluctuation of a Swinging Pendulum.
I don’t know when it happened, but somewhere between then and now, a “Third Room” was created in my Mind where I “withdraw” as an Alternative to “Black” or “White.”
The Evaluation Room.
The Evaluation Room is a Mindset that removes me from Both “A” and “B” and allows me to “Zoom out” so I can assess all Variables Objectively.
This allows me to step back and assess without having to Manage the arduous task of “Regulating” while In a Subjective Position.
I thought about how helpful this tool has been over the last year and how much it requires a Spotlight of its own.
It was in this room that I stepped back today and assessed my current situation.
Nothing is harder than a Life we live being drawn to something we can’t identify. It’s Disorienting. It’s Self-Imploding. It’s Devastating.
Some people wake up one morning suddenly feeling their Sexuality or Gender has been reassigned. Others wake up one morning to realize they’re in the wrong Job, Marriage, Country, Family.
And then the mad scramble to sort out the Chaos and find Order without Name.
The more I did work in Psychology and Language, the more I realized people learned the wrong “Job Titles” to describe what it is they want to be when they grow up. Resulting in a whole lot of people findinging themselves in the Wrong Job.
Marriages and Relationships that seemed happy, suddenly aren’t as People break up because they had a shift in Sexuality or Gender. As if Sex or Gender is a defining factor in a relationship.
And the mad scramble — The Hunt — begins.
Finding my True Passion — My Life Song — was a nightmare. I Mine Data from the Universe, which I then use to Analyze the Integrated Chemistry of Biology. Which I then use to Problem Solve Global Societal Problems.
Try putting that on a resume.
I record, preserve, and archive the Data that I mine.
I then meet with World Leaders to organize the Implementation of the Global Societal Solutions.
This is what was inside of me since 1992. In all that I did in life, everywhere I walked, this is what I carried inside of my head, mind, and heart. The words for it did not exist. The Vocabulary, Understanding, Comprehension of it, did not exist.
I had to find it all on my own. And find it I did. A feat that was only possible because I knew how to Mine Data from the Universe.
The Alexandria Project has been inside of me for more than 30 years. Today was the first day I was able to get it outside of me.
I wrote up the Plan. I composed the Layout and Integrated all of my Components into The Alexandria Plan.
**Crickets**
This is why I want an Anna Imagination Club. Hence “The Playground.”
- We have our Life Line (Melody or X-Axis).
- We have the Societal Hierarchy (Harmony or Y-Axis).
- We have the Logical Integrated Harmonic Line. This one — the Logical Integrated Harmonic Line — is the one everyone misses. Let’s call this the “Q”-Axis…
Yes. “The Q-Axis.” On multiple levels, that is very appropriate. The 12 Ethics are along the Q-Axis and the X-Axis. Atoms run along a Q-Axis.
Clocks run on a Y-Axis.
The Cartesian Coordinate System runs on both, the X-Axis and also the X, Y, Z Axis, as well as the Q-Axis. Which is why the word “Dimension” pisses me off so much.
My Logical Integrated Harmonic Line (Q-Axis) is currently being built. I have no Intimacy Level at this time. And it is something I definitely feel. I finally have an Inner Circle and an External Circle.
The Circle of Trust is on the Q-Axis.
The Journey of the Discovered Self is the Integration of the Q-Axis, Y-Axis, and X-Axis.
Today I learned that the External Circle requires “A” Behavior and the Inner Circle requires “B” behavior.
I learned that too many people merge “A” and “B” with The Intimacy Level.
But I can see it now. I know better.
I am correcting the Logical Ordering of this as we speak.
Hence my need for the Evaluation Room.
I desire Intimacy. I just… struggle finding. it. But also, I don’t think it’s possible to have it until and unless the work is done for the whole of the Self-System.
And just like that… I can see how and where Intimacy all fits into this… and how My Life does, in fact, have room for Personal Endeavors. I expel The Alexandria Project from me and within the hour, I can see where I have room enough for a Personal Life.
It amazes me how The Universe Works.